Monday, October 08, 2007 ; 11:45 AM {♥}
MY LEGS ARE FREEZING!!!
ya ya. im in class now and my legs are freezing. =P
so cold. i wonder how they make the aircon here freezing. BRRR~
okay. i duno how to say this, but i'll still go ahead and say what i want to say to someone close and dear to my heart. <3
i read someone's blog. is that the reason why you're avoiding us? is that the reason why you're forming a wall around yourself and us? is that why you are creating a barrier between us? is it worth it? is it worth it for someone so unworthy? people want to ignore you. but i cant. i cant bear to see you fall down the pits and not being able to pull yourself out of it. you might be thinking why am i so different? simply because. i love you. i hold you close to my heart. i CANOT.. i repeat.. CANOT! bear to see you drifting away from us, from the family, from people who care about you. people say: "dont care about her." but do you think im able to pull myself away from you. why am i doing all this? i care, im concerned. im worried. anxious. but im trying not to let it affect me cos i know it wont help in any way. avoiding us? do you think it will help?
you might think: " you are the one who didn't bother" or " you are the one who keeps smsing me and now you complain?" well. but have you tried putting yourself in our shoes? understanding how we feel? if we didn't care, would we bother doing all this? why create a barrier? will it help?
the past is already past. what has happened, happened already, even if things dont go your way. life is not a fairytale. God doesn't come and tell us: " Dear sons and daughters, life is gonna be meaningful and fruitful for you. your life will be like a fairytale." but instead i believe what God tells us is: " Dear sons and daughters.. when you are going through a tough time, im there for you. when you think no one cares, i care. when everyone rejects you, i accept you. when everyone hates you, I LOVE YOU."
because God forsake Jesus, we are forgiven.
because the people condemned Jesus, we are accepted.
i want you to know that you are not the only one going through all these. there are people out there worst than you. yes, God is there to love you. but the reason why He places all these trials in your life is because he wants you to rely on Him. He wants you to go back to Him. you might think things are not working out, but through all these, when you learn to rely on God, you glorify Him, you testify of how God has helped you through all these.
Dear sister,
stand strong stand firm. im not gonna blame you. but im gonna encourage you to let you know i still care and love you. i want you to know that you are not rejected by the family and me. you are loved by us. you are a princess and you are precious in His eyes. (: i want you to know that through the family, i hope you see the love of Daddy God. (: that we still treat you as family. that we so want you to come back to us.
WE LOVE YOU! (:
the above msg is for someone close to my heart. someone i love so dearly. no worries, im not lesbian. but love as in.. friends, family love.
i just hope God will work in her life.
i know God will as i will continue to pray.
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