Sunday, November 11, 2007 ; 9:25 PM {♥}
hey all. im updating now and today.
im feeling quite upset.
i believe some of you might have already known what happened.
family problems. actually it's just between me and my dad.
im so filled with anger and discouragement.
my heart feels so heavy. with all the hurts that he's done to me.
maybe i've done something wrong at some point of my life but i believe, there is a right way to handle every single thing. not by lying. and using someone's life to LIE and make me go home early. im not upset about you wanting me to be home early or that you are concerned for my safety. but you've got to understand that by lying it is not a good thing. telling me my brother has a HEART ATTACK. are you out of your mind?!? i was scared out of my wits. ask people who were there! i cried like shit. and in the end, all you told me was: "if i didn't make it sound serious, would you have gone home early??"
you think you can just use any silly dumb excuse on me??! what if it really happens the next time, and i will go: OH! THE OTHER TIME YOU WERE LYING. so you should be lying now too.
some things should be handled the correct way. you've hurt me.
but i kept quiet.
i dont see a father figure at home. i really dont.
and worst thing is that you said it in front of my friends!
can you imagine what my friends will think of me and you?! why would i have such a dad to resort to such thinking! GOODNESS GRACIOUS! frankly speaking. im ashamed to tell people you're my dad after what you said last night. )): at home, when i look at you, i dont see a father. but instead, i see someone who thinks he is right ALL THE TIME, doing things in his own way, not caring about the things he say, even if it hurts people, a stubborn guy who doesn't take into consideration the feelings of his own flesh and blood daughter.
i do not want this kind of life! im sick and tired of all this kind if attitude in you!
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oh God, release forgiveness from me.
i tend to compare but i can't help it. ):
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