how come i feel so neglected suddenly?
did we ever started off seriously? have you ever treated me seriously? or was i just a replacement/substitute(whatever you call it). endless calls with no answers; many sms-es, little replies. i just dont feel like i deserve all this after all that i've put in.

突然觉得好寂寞哦。

this is not what i want. have you ever wondered, what if im not in your life anymore? aren't you ever afraid that i wont be there for you anymore? wont you be afraid that i wont be part of your future anymore? what is it you want?

you told me never to go find you anymore. i stopped. you told me to lessen those calls/sms-es. and i did. i really did. i tried... at least.

im sick but did you ever called to ask how am i? why isit that other can come tell me to take care, drink more water, but not you? i gave you chances. its been so long. but still.. its heading nowhere. i really dont see where this whole thing is heading to. i feel super neglected. )=

haiis. )= i just want to vent it out all on my blog. hoping that i would feel better. but i dont think it helps. why isit that the person i want to see, doesn't appear before me. if only i had magic.. POOF. den i can see you whenever i want.

I FEEL SUPER NEGLECTED EVEN AFTER RECEIVING YOUR CALL. )=

I MISS YOUUUU. OH SHIT.

知道你关心我。当我最需要人的时候，你一直都在。
谢谢你愿意为我付出的一切。面对你的时候，我心里充满着，感激和抱歉。
有很多的对不起；有很多的“谢谢你的照顾与关怀。”
没有你的话，我知道我今天就不会是现在的我了。我真的有好多话想对你说。可是，一时说不出口。虽然，我对你所做的一切，会使你看不出我对你的感谢；但是，我心里真的是包含着这么多的感谢话。

知道我有好几次是令你很失望。可是，你却义不容辞的继续守候着我；在我最需要人的时候，在我身边陪伴着我。

真得很感激。
我也会在这；永远永远。

I'll Be - Edwin McCain

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

Chorus
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above

Repeat Chorus

I've been dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, Remembered the things that you said

Repeat Chorus



yea. above is one of my favourite songs.
CURRENTLY IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG (=

its my blog song too. want to share the lyrics with you all.
my calf muscles are aching! PAINFUL!!!
massage anyone? WHO WANT TO HELP ME SAYANG MY CALF MUSCLE?! lols.

nothing much to update. will be back thought.



love ya'll,
adeline (:

YOUR TRULY IS OFFICIALLY SICK! roars~!
new advert coming in this sunday! and i want to shop! (=
but i need money!

SF, here i comeeeeee!!!!
$$$ (=

JIU MING AHHH. my audition cannot play! why!!! )=
spent like one hour downloading it. and haiis. CMI.
oh yes. and my PP! i haven started yet. OH SHIT. i need to stop procrastinating and get started. dateline for final report draft would be on the 1st aug!!! which is one month's time. )= ARGH. stupid PP. okay. i admit. im panicking le.

waiting in expectance for someone to reply my sms. but none. nehmind. i will not do anything about it anymore. i cannot be the one always trying to push my limits. the other person must also be trying. but it seems like it's not working. )= HAIIS.

I WANT TO PLAY AUDITION! ):

sorry all non-chinese readers. sorry my posts are in chinese. guess i express myself better in chinese. (=

突然感到心情好沉重哦。怎么会这样呢？
好想你哦。打给你又不接，传简讯给你也不回讯。到底是怎么了？我已经尽量不要再惹你生气了。真的好想带给你辛福。你知道吗，当你不理我时，真的好寂寞哦。真的不该如何是好。你知道吗，我给你的爱是你给我的，多十千，十万倍！难道，要你多注意我很难吗？

我真的是无法用字来形容我对你的爱。难道，你还不相信我吗？还感觉不出来吗？我给你的，是我的一切，我的全部。我要求并不多。只希望你能多关心我，多想要了解我，多注意我所为你做的一切。这样就可以了。我就已经心满意足了。我现在心情真的很不好。眼泪都快要流下来了。
为什么在我最需要人的时候，没有人在我身边？
最重要的是，当我最需要你的时候，你在哪里!!! 你知道我为你而伤心了多久吗？你知道我一直都躲在被子里哭吗？你知道我是有多么的需要你吗？你到底在哪里!!!

心好痛哦。真的好痛。)=

words cannot express the love i have for you...

the way i need you, the way i love you, is more than how much you give to me.
it's alright. as long you are happy, i would be as well. contented enough!
no matter how much i long to see you, no matter how much i long to even just talk to you for that few minutes or seconds, i learn to control. i know you have other things on your mind like work and stuff. even if you do not share them with me, it's okay. just that few minutes spent with you, i would be contented. i've never felt this way for anyone before. im serious. i don't know why... im not kidding. im serious.

so heartpain. HEARTPAIN )=

im so fake..

//edited
time: 12.40pm
venue: school (class)

im so boredd. JAVA today is soooo difficult. cos i skipped last week's lesson and this week im having difficulty. )= HAIIS. i promise i'll TRY NOT to skip JAVA again.
today's problem is so difficult.

我为什么会有一个那么奇怪的感觉啊？
like what my bestie always like to say... 为何？为何？为何？
haiis.
你怎么有时对我那么好，那有时候又对我不理不睬的呢？
这7个月以来，直到现在，我还不明白你在想什么。
我只能默默地猜测。我并不敢问你因为我知道你很不喜欢。可是只要能听到你心里在想什么；就可以了。我真得很想和你一起分享你的快乐，伤心，痛苦。你愿意让我这样做吗？可以吗？在你背后默默地支持你；守候着你；希望你能知道。

the above is for someone who i doubt would read my blog.
early morning and then have sucky feeling. )= haiis. why always lidat. just when i thought things were going well, i had to screw it up. WHY!
too late to apologise...

SIANSSSS.
SHIT. im emo. -.-
__________________________________
ARGH!
my blog readers are dropping! only 190 this week! ARGH! how to advertise my blog! PEOPLE, PLS READ LAMERRLOOSERS.BS.COM. ): ROARS.

我爱你，你知道吗？
真的很爱恨爱你。
我无法想象没有你的那一天。直到现在，我还不知道为什么，每一次看到你或和你有单独相处的时间时；我的心一直在微笑的感觉。
我真的超爱你的！

HAHAH. random-ness for the above sentences. -.- duno what to type. (= HAHAH.
girlfriends, lets meet up for GIRLS-TALK soon okay! REAL SOOOON UH!

i miss my girlfriendss. DARLINNNNNGGG!!!!
sleeping soon(= gdnight my DLFs (Dear Little Friends).

much love,
adeline (=

YOYO. quite a number of overdued photos. will post them up now. BUT NOT ALL. cos too many. AND THAT HUIYIN HAVEN SEND ME THE BIRTHDAY PICTURES. roars. nehmind. i shall be patient and wait. (=



OKAY OKAY! I THINK YOU'RE SICK OF LOOKING AT MY PICTURES! haha. next batch of pictures PLEASEEEEEE (:

我知道你一直都在我身边。
我也知道你很努力！一直都不舍得看到我痛苦，伤心。

看到你肯为我那么辛苦，痛苦。有时候还真的是很不知所措。
想要你知道：我会一直守候着你。不管发生什么事，我都在。虽然我曾经说过一些不该说的话，可是我知道那一反话，是我一时激动而说的。

谢谢你一直那么的照顾我.
(=

sorry the post is in chinese. just felt like blogging in chinese (:

love ya'll & YOU,
adeline (:

didn't meet in the end. cancelled. ):
anw, i need youuu right now.

WHERE ARE YOU!
I NEED YOU.
FCUK.
__________________________________
SHIATTTTT.
boredddd.

MEETING MY GIRLFRIENDS FOR A DRINK LATER AT STARBUCKSSSS.
ciaosss :D

OHOHOHOH~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i got my darling laptop backkkkk! YAY! but it has been reformatted.
BOOOOOO.... ALL MY PHOTOS GONEEEE LE. OKAY.

not all. but most.. )= still sadded. but nehmind. at least its not so laggy now. HOHOHOHOOHOHOHO~!.
IM SO BORED.
sheng huo hao men oh.
who can add more colours to my mundane life? anyone?? anyone??!?!!
有人吗？

my life is so deaddddd. ARGHHHH. MEN SI LE...............................................................
roars.

BYEBYE. x(

HEY ALL.
sorry for lack of updates, reason being: my laptop is down at the ACER hospital for repair. i've decided to reformat my laptop. much of the pictures gone. but i dont want to keep going down so yeahh. REFORMATTT! nehmind. pictures can get back anytime. but my laptop keeps crashing which is not a gd sign.

so when i get my darlingg back, i promise. UPDATES OKAY?

love ya'll
*smmoooooochessss*

haiis. im so bored. ): ROARS.


anyone pls entertain me. time now is 8.27. no sms, nothing.
argh! time seems to passing so slowly. and i went blog-shopping just now. intend to buy this hoodie i saw. DAMN CUTE AND NICE LAHH. i dont care. i must get it! i must buy it! $20. quite cheap lahh.
and they do meetups. (: HEHE. at clementi and dover. so its quite convenient for me. I WANT THAT UFO HOODIE.


and i think my papa quite disgusting at times. i think he doesn't read my blog. but i really think sometimes when he does things, i get very pek chek. zzzzz argh. nehmind. say also no use.


I THINK FROM NOW ON, IM GONNA BLOG IN ITALICS. (: haha. YAY! cos i think its very nice.
guess i shall stop here.


BOREDDDD ):

argh!
my laptop keeps restarting. i changed my blog song people :D

ALWAYS BE MY BABY - DAVID COOK! *screeeeeeammmmss*
HOT HOT!
damn eff-ing nice!



LOLS. currently listening and missing someone. (= HAHAH. yay! COMING BACKKK TO TODAYYYY. sunday sunday!!! wooots. and one more week plus and its the 22nd of july! wooooots. i think only certain people know what that means.

my irritating brother is forcing to play PS (PlayStation). but i dont want to. cos i dont play with CHEATERS. lucky he still cant read. if not, i'll be running away with him behind me, chasing me with a chopper. (: suppose to meet GUOQIANG today. but cancelled last minute.

school is starting next week alrdy. darlinggs, feel free to come woodlands and have lunch with me. i'll ditch school for your! weeeeee. its okay to once in a while ditch school to have fun lahh i feel. HAHHAHA. =x

i was just telling my girlfriends and friends the other day that the word FUCK is actually not a vulgarity because people just happen to abuse the usage of this word. FUCK can be found in dictionaries. and it just means having sex. well, there's nothing wrong. it's just a process whereby newborns are being made. but some people are just so sensitive that everytime they want to say smth like: did you have sex/did you just fuck your boyf? ; they would go: did you "that one that one"? or like did you "do that"?

i just think its weird and why would people choose to abuse such a word? i mean if dictionaries allow it, the government allows it, den its not wrong right. its only wrong when people use it in wrong circumstances.

aiya. just suddenly thought of this and think its weird thats all.
F-U-C-K (:
isit really bad?


much love,
author of lamerrloosers.bs.com :3

____________________________________

i dont like this feeling. ever since last nighttttt.... when i saw you. i knew i couldn't forget. maybe it's because of the emptyness in me, during this longgg period of time.

i knew life was great for you without me. even though the feelings were not there, im confirmed. but one thing for sure was, there were memories. be it good or bad. one thing for sure also was i have never forgotten.

i didn't think you were at fault this whole time. i did not think i would even be able to see you again. that feeling was awkward/weird, whatever you call it. but i knew that, inside of me, i was happy to be able to see you back to your normal self. (: those small little actions you did, made
me understand that you never changed. (= you're still you.

i just want to treasure this friendship.
friendship & memories.
thats all i want. (= and i just hope, you do too.

with love,
adeline (:

p/s: girlfriends, i had fun (: thanks for the late night talk about love, friends and sex. LOLS. YEAH. thats what girlfriend do! <3>

MY RANDOMSSSS :

TMR GOING CAFE CARTEL woooooots. (= HAHAHA.
im broke. but its okays. zzzz

HAHA. anw, got pictures to post. HAHAH. currently hooked onto my psp audition LOLS. later i'll post up my score. i think you'l get a shock. and i just started playing not long. LOLS. well. thats my highest so far. and the rest, are just random pictures. nothing much to blog about. went for talk in school today. slept for the first one and a half hours. DAMN BORING. and im very sleepy as well. HAIIIIS.

$$$$$$$$$$$$$

last week of holiday, RP-ians. better enjoy (=
_____________________________________________

i would try to be a million times better.
sometimes i think... im shit. VERY VERY shit.
if i could please everyone, whats life?
i tried. i really tried. )))))))):
still, it hurts. like something that struck me.
something unpleasant that struck me.
i know. im shit.
SAY IT. SAY IT STRAIGHT IN MY FACE AND MAKE SURE I DIE.
a horrible death.

MY 302TH POST WOULD BE A SAD ONE. COS IM VERY SAD AT THIS POINT OF TIME. MY PARENTS DONT TRUST ME. IM A BIG GIRL LIAO MA.... ):
haiis. say so much also no use. irritating!

ADELINE IS VERY SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!
%#!@^$#$%


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YAY!
NUFFNANG GIVING ME ANOTHER ADVERT.
butttt..........
still so longggggggggg awayyy!

29 JUNE - 5 JULY!!!!! :D

oh welllls. better than nothing!
seeeee! who says nuffnang dont love me?!
=P
YAY! HAPPPY!!

i want my cheque soooooon :D

KBOX on monday.

HAHAH. im addicted to FACEBOOK'S - make a baby application again!

arghh. im so boreddd. thankful God for Psp, laptop, handphones. (:

ytd was monday.
zooooooooomed to changi airport with bestie! WOOOOOTS! very fun! pictures all below in another post (: enjoy bahs. the rest are with weiwei at THEWEAKCAT.BLOGSPOT.COM
and he played my psp! YES! i got myself a psp! LOLS.

limited edition colour - MINT GREEEEEEN (:
hahaha. and now no need scared bored le! and as always, bestie always act smart. duno how to play puzzle bobble still play final fantasy -.- wth.

AIRPORT!!

so. i met weiwei at. round 12.45 today at toapayoh. we had.
MOS.
then after that, we left for airport via MRT.
reached there, then we went T3 straight!!!
took couple of shots there.
NICE environment wor...
wanted to go budget terminal de. but. lazy. HAHA.
anyway... there were lotsa couples hugging. hiding in corners.
EVERYWHERE! wanna find nice spot also hard. =.=

then after that we went to eat again. at SAKAE! LOL!
hahaha. ate. 28.?? dollars. then we went to walk somemore.
and headed over to T1 to take more photos. okay. we tired
taking those. from bottom pics. all turn out UGLY!!! eeeyer.
so. after that. we went back to T2. and took the train off.
throughout somewhere.
we talked about FUNNY stuffs.
like example, we talked about. our ACCIDENTS!
and there was those nehneh grabbing reactions. and jokes.
LOL!
everytime go out with weiwei sure laugh dao peng one.
HAHA.
my bestiee.. awwww. HAHAHA.

//if your realise, the above is what weiwei has in his blog. (: well. HAHAH. our inside joke lahh! nehmind. we are BO LIAO BESTIESSSS!

much love,
adeline ((:

dearest bb, i miss you a lot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH. dont think i'll be seeing you this holiday!!!!!! MISSSSSSSSED BY MEEEEEEE ): ONE WEEKKKKKKK argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Song: Er Zuo Ju

我找不到很好的原因
去阻挡這一切的情意
这感决太奇異
我抱谦不能説明

我相信这爱情的定義
奇迹會發生也不一定
风溫柔的清晰
也许飘来好消息

一切新鲜
有点冒险 请告訴我怎么走到重点
沒有人了解 沒有人像我和陌生人的爱恋

我想我会开始想念你
可是我刚刚才遇见了你
我怀疑这奇遇只是個惡作剧

我想我已慢慢喜欢你
因为我拥有愛情的勇气
我任性 投入你給的惡作劇剧
你给的惡作剧

I DONT WANT YOU TO LEAVE LAHH!
SADDDDDD!!! x(

ONE WEEKKKKKK.
SO LONGGGGGGGGGGGG ):

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