Saturday, July 12, 2008 ; 12:17 PM {♥}
well. maybe your heart wasn't with me this whole time. it was all a coax. 'i love you' was just something to make me feel better. i think so; i know so. (:
feel a lot better after crying. and i shouldn't be crying. why should i? the one crying should be you.. HAHA. i believe your ex-girlf needs you more right? im just doing what i should do. push myself away and give you both the happiness you need. since you cant let go of her. you know something? i wanted to give you a chance to be better; but you didn't take it. hence, this decision to get you out of my life. i wont be so dumb anymore. and hey, i believe one day; one fine day; i'll find someone better. i'll find someone who loves me more than i love him. i'll find someone who knows how to treasure me. and the next time you see me, you'll see me happy, REALLY happy; with my happiness of course. he might not be the most handsome/charming guy you see around; but hey, you capture someone's heart with the things you do; with the sincerity coming deep down from YOU. not with your bare hands or taking down the brightest stars from above or merely actions. even actions are not everything.
you migh be doing it, but deep down, do you do what you're suppose to do out for the sake of doing it/are you doing it because you really think its the best thing you can do for him/her and that you really love him/her?
i believe all that you've done for me, some might be the latter, but i believe most are the former. i dont need someone who goes all out to do things for me or do the greatest things to make me pleased, of course i would be happy if someone does that. but what truly matters is, even if he does the slightest things of dropping me a sms, with the thought that he TRULY miss me and love, thats enough. (: well, it could also be the result of my personality, i get contented easily. well, and sad easily too.
after all that i've said here, i believe i will be happy. very happy. i promise you.
why should i be sad anw? i didn't lose the greatest thing on earth. in fact, i think i gained it. and im proud of myself! i know that there is still someone out there, worthy of my love and trust :D
thanks to all who've been concerned. im fine. im okay :D
i love you all,
adeline.
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