Wednesday, July 16, 2008 ; 6:35 PM {♥}
you know how badly i cried. you heard it yourself.
i will never forget those days. NEVER. i dont really care what others tell me. i just know that i cannot.. i really cannot continue like that anymore. when i see your picture, read your sms, all those small little things that you do that's etched in my mind, will start to flood my brain.
i only know that 我不可以没有你。
我真的很后悔说出那些话。自从11 of july, 我一直都无法开心起来。每天看到的，都只是我在办个假象。我已经开始失去了自己。应为有了你在我身边，我才可以开开心心的过每一天。可是现在的我，似乎已经不懂得什么叫做快乐了。
每天晚上，都很期待你简讯，一个晚安，一个goodnight也好。我都能觉得很开心。我无法接受你不在我身边的事实。你为什么到现在才开始对我好？我真的很期待你能在给我们一个机会的那一天。真的真的很想你；真的真得很爱你。
there's nothing i can do now except wait. you have your freedom now and i cant control it. i cannot be how i used to be, sms-ing you,where are you; who are you with. now i can only wait in expectancy for your sms. i miss everything about you, really.
i hope you're reading this. haiis. there's no other way i can express my thoughts and feeling alrdy. i've said what i've got to say. i've said more than enough things to make you feel and understand my love for you.
you've heard me cry. what else do you want me to do? i just want to be better because maybe i wasn't good enough before. its hard for me to tell you how sorry i am for saying those things. i didn't expect you to take it seriously. i wanted you to say smth like: "must we?" or "can't this be salvaged?" or maybe "i really dont want this. do you want to think about it? what have i done wrong?".
i just hoped that you would be able to see how much i missed you. i cannot take it anymore. i will wait. one month, many months, one year, many years. i dont know. but i know i'll wait. i dont think i can ever love someone else as much as i love you. i've told you before. NO ONE has ever made me like this. losing myself, cos of you. now you know how much i mean to you? i hope you feel the same way.
I WANT THAT CHANCE. AND I'LL TREASURE IT. I PROMISE.
with love,
adeline ):
p/s: everyday im smiling so fakely. zzz dont care what others say, whether im foolish or not. i just know i cannot dont have you, baby.
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