Tuesday, December 09, 2008 ; 11:43 AM {♥}
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i dont know why im still feeling this way. ): someone cheer me up please.
people who seem to be happy on the outside, need not neccessarily be what they are on the inside. HELP ME.
i dont like this feeling.
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because what we say makes sense, because what we say is logically, thats why problems seem to arise. (:
because what we say is right, thats why there are conflicts between us right?
think about it. think deeply.
the truth is, im not very much excited about hong kong trip. there are certain things i cannot bear to let go. even if its just for a week. even though i know im coming back. but i cannot seem to cast away my problems and care and just leave like as though i do not have anything to worry about. i cannot feign ignorance and pretend that nothing is bothering me. there is in fact. there is a problem but, we choose not to talk about it. i hope to be someone you can turn to when you are not happy, and i wish i can be someone to share your joy with you.i want to be part of your emotions, your feelings and thoughts, i hope. to show that at least i can be someone you can confide in. i hope to confide in you too. but somehow, thoughts clash and your advice seems to be more of, reprimanding. mhmmm.
aiya. doesn't matter :D
as long as i make sure im happy for now can le (: cos thats my promise to you and myself and friends who care. i must be happy. really!!!!
at least, i'll try.
even if i cannot be happy in the end, and i will still feel insecure,but at least i tried.
what i need most is trust and security from you. i will try my best to be good enough for you. i will try my best to make you happy. i will put in effort to be a girlfriend worthy of your love. (:
but what i need most is trust and security. its not easy. i know. if you cannot do it, i wont blame you also. because i cant guarantee that i will do it myself. but at least, i've said out what i want to say. and i really feel much better (: lets hope the week gets better. before i fly off to HK.
take care all.
with love,
adeline.
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