Friday, April 10, 2009 ; 1:25 AM {♥}
so many people could have done it.
to tell you the truth, im sad.
FREAKINGG SAD.
im someone who needs encouragement.
i seriously dont mind if a stranger or close friend comes up to me and tells me: "heyyy. i think you are damn bad looking. i think you are fat. go away!"
i seriously dont mind.
i wouldn't care and bother if they all bring me down and say things that brings down my self-esteem. but to think, of all people to do it, its you.
YES YOU.
feeling a tinge of guilt?
i doubt so.
i put up with it. smiling and all.
being happy and stuff.
and what do i get? somewhere in my positive self, there was this small bit of sadness.
there was smth telling me: "dont try to act like a happy-go-lucky person. this might be what is inside of you, but the outside of you is what gives people a clear impression of yourself "
go ahead.
everyone, scold me and tell me im being ridiculous!
but do you know how much your words and comments can impact me?!
i can throw away anything thats is unpleasant to me, i can choose to not hear bad things people say about me, but i DEFINITELY CANNOT ignore everything about YOU.
i repeat, CANNOT.
your actions, every small little thing you say and do means so much to me.
your words are important.
my self-esteem is getting lower.
mission accomplished for you (: happy?
of course you are!
maybe one's appearance is really important afterall.
nobody likes fat and ugly people.
im fat.
im ugly.
fullstop.
Blogged With Love, Yours Truly {♥}
