Monday, September 14, 2009 ; 11:34 AM {♥}
没有了你
没有爱情。
什么都已经是空气。
我打算把回忆关进房间。
the way you look at me used to make me smile.
somehow, now when you look at me i feel so much intensity & a slight fear.
i dont know why.
so many times i want to help, so many times i want to reach out.
but our hearts hardened and we are trying so hard to get each other out of our lifes.
the truth is, i cannot do it.
i dont want my heart to hardened towards you.
because, if one day, you happen to tell me things that are troubling you, i want to help you, not with a hardened heart but a heart that tells you im there for you; always.
i want to love you; as a friend.
there are many things in life we cannot control.
but for those that can be controlled, i want to make the best out of it.
especially my relationship with people.
be it friends, family or my other half.
i ever had this thought, what if one day, im not with you.
then who is the one who is going to ask you whether you have eaten. whether you are okay?
if im not with you, who is going to cover up that missing piece in your heart which you have been trying to hide after so many years?
if im not with you, can you ever find someone who loves you as much as i do?
if im not with you, can you find someone who knows you as well i do?
maybe you can.
thats why you think im not good enough.
thats why you think i dont understand you enough.
but if you dont tell me things, how do you want me to understand you?
it takes 2 hands to clap.
sometimes, i get so close, but i get knocked off by this barrier.
the tone of your voice to me, the sms-es you reply, the look you give me.
everything. but memories are just memories. it will fade away as time passes.
so i will let go. really i will.
afterall, what i want to say is...
i am always here for you (:
With Love,
Adeline.
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